No control.
So, it appears I've gotten myself knocked up again. Number 4. That's crazy! Or so I thought for a while. All the thoughts went through my head: What are we going to do? FOUR kids? How are we going to do this? I can't do this! Then I had a reminder from God.
It's not my decision. Either way- fourth child or not- it is not my decision.
I had a pretty bad scare last Monday that put me on bed-rest for 48 hours before I begged my doctor for an ultrasound to find out what is going on. I will find out Tuesday what the ultrasound showed- but what it showed me was a perfectly healthy beautiful baby.
No control. I know what this means. But I also know that even thought I have no control, I do have prayer. And meditation. And lots and lots of movies. And wonderful, kind-hearted family members. And comforting friends. I may not have control- but look what I do have.
2 comments:
It is a hard lesson to learn and unfortunately it usually takes a good 'scare' to open our eyes to the fact that control is clearly an impossibility. I am glad that you can focus on what wonderful things you do have- because that is the key to not going crazy in this life! Love you, Bet
xoxo
We all have prayer and I'll continue saying one for you & the little stranger every night.
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